#03 DIARY - When Everything Goes Wrong
The trip that didn't happen...
I came back from Bali with the idea of organizing a campaign trip to Brazil with one of my best friends, who also happens to be a photographer. The plan seemed perfect—combining work with adventure, pushing the boundaries of what we could achieve creatively and professionally. But when you’re freelance, your work depends 100% on you. It’s an incredible freedom but comes with its challenges, too.
Bali had been an experience that pushed me far beyond my limits. I was exhausted but still really excited about continuing this kind of remote campaign trips. I wanted to prove to myself that I could do it again, even bigger this time. But life had other plans.
The trip to Bali was the backdrop for one of the hardest personal moments of my life. I had to end a seven-year relationship. While still in Bali, I managed to keep moving forward because I had so many responsibilities pulling me in every direction. But once I got home, everything hit me all at once. The grief was overwhelming, and impossible to ignore. I found myself in a place where I had to prioritize my mental health over my career, something that felt both necessary and impossibly frustrating. I decided to cancel the Brazil trip.
Making that decision was one of the hardest things I’ve done. On the one hand, I knew it was the right thing for me. But on the other hand, it felt like a step backward—a missed opportunity to keep building this career I’ve worked so hard for. I’m someone who’s incredibly driven, sometimes to a fault. So letting go of something I wanted so badly, even for my own well-being, felt like I was failing. I was angry at myself for not being able to do it all.
But now, months later, I can see how taking that time to heal gave me space to focus on other projects I had been putting off. Staying home allowed me to connect with more Argentinian brands and launch my photography podcast in Spanish, two things I’d been wanting to do for a long time. Looking back, I realize how much I needed that pause, even if it didn’t feel like it at the moment.
Brazil will happen one day—I know it will. In the meantime, I’ve been able to plan my next big adventure: Paris. As with any new destination, I’ve been taking my time to connect with people—producers, creatives, models, agencies, and photographers. And, of course, building proposals and pitching ideas. It feels exciting to step into a new chapter with a fresh perspective.
2025 is shaping up to be a year of many travels and new destinations, which is what excites me most in life. But I think the biggest lesson I’ve learned through all of this is that it’s okay when things don’t go according to plan. It’s okay to pause, to take a step back, and to put yourself first. When one door closes, the world has a way of opening up in unexpected and beautiful ways.
